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Fear

by Neil MacLeod

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Neil MacLeod is an artist who is steadfast in their vision, and ‘Fear' is a watershed moment in the ongoing artistic evolution of the 24-year-old Ōtautahi/ Christchurch born New Zealand singer-songwriter, producer, engineer, and artist. Sonically, it is an amalgamation of MacLeod’s instinct and skill, and lyrically an exploration of the subconscious.

Premiering on Pilerats, 'Fear' is described as "enchanting, with atmospheric synths and string plucks Neil’s ethereal vocals, before tastefully booming kick drums and snarling bass lines enter the mix. Slowly building across the track’s just over three minute runtime, MacLeod manages to pack a few aural twists in a poppy song length."

It’s a song that showcases MacLeod’s unique sonic identity. The sharpness and fullness of the soundscape paired with the haunting fragility of MacLeod’s vocals creates a hypnotic tension.

“Like many people, I’ve allowed fear to influence my life,” says MacLeod. “At one stage, I developed quite a fearful relationship with my dreams. I’d been exploring dream interpretation and lucid dreaming and found myself increasingly anxious about going to sleep. In retrospect, I can see that I was just too close and obsessed with the whole thing. I was reading meaning into my dreams without any help or support, and it was messing with my sense of reality. This song gets into all of that. In essence, it’s exploring the fear that I might lose myself on the journey to finding myself.”

For MacLeod, the visual world of song holds acute importance, and the visualiser accompanying ‘Fear’ is mysterious, beguiling, and a taste of the things to come from MacLeod which wait in the wings.

“The video is an introduction to the wider visual world of my next EP ‘I Need a Battle’. The floating object you see is a vessel, from which reflective, gooey black liquid escapes. These are symbols which play an important part in the story. For now, simply soak it up.”

lyrics

I’ve died a thousand times
Whilst I’m asleep
Lucidly retreating

But I don’t know,
Is there safety in the darkness
I’m not sure,
Doesn’t feel like this is harmless
And I know,
I know I’ve had this dream before

And so I wonder
Was I ever reawoken?
It’s not over
Not for me
Not for you
I’m hurting
I’m afraid of the healing
I feel it coming closer
Just hold me till we
Wake up again

I know I’m lost,
Inside this mind I’ve made
Sumbler was my hiding place,
Now it feels like prison
Know I need a storm,
Some form of hurricane
That’s where I’ll find home again
Oh I’m done with fighting

But I don’t know
Will my mind let me surrender
I’m not sure
Some days life feels like it’s ending
All I know
Something’s gotta keep me alive

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released March 15, 2024
Composed, produced, mixed, and mastered by Neil MacLeod.

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Wellington based artist Neil MacLeod’s 2019 debut EP ‘To Unfold’ marked his emergence as a standout artist in the indie- electronica scene. His new EP ‘We Have Known Lost Days’, signifies a bold new chapter. Neil MacLeod’s fresh and emotive sound brings genres together in exciting ways, challenging and moving audiences with his dark cinematic electronic music juxtaposed with intimate soul. ... more

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